I am sharing this because i know that a lot of you are going thru this as well. A lot of you are just as confused as I am about “What God wants me to do”. I read your comments and emails and all your questions. Its hard cause the questions you ask are questions i have myself.
My life has taken some turns and for the most part it has been exciting and fun. This part of my life isnt so much. I am scared and confused. How did i go from ‘what i prayed for’ to ‘an opportunity presents itself’ to ‘hey guess what something big could be on the way’. Its frustrating because i thought i was already at a place where God wants to use me. But now i can be pulled to two different place…Where do i go…What do I do? I am beginning to lose sleep over this.
After speaking with a childhood friend and my wife and asking for prayers, I am just as confused as ever. I then had a breakthrough! I GIVE UP!!!!! I GIVE UP TRYING TO FIGURE OUT WHAT God WANTS OUT OF ME! I give up trying to put the pieces together. I give up trying to “make moves” so that something will happen. I give up and will now let God completely take control.
Whether i stay where i am, go somewhere else, do what what i am doing now, create something new with a new opportunity, or even revert back to life before 2013 and the hectic schedule of a family business…i will just “fall” into place knowing that this is what God had planned all along. -PJSLB