Business – Page 21 – Need The Spirit

It has been a challenging holiday season. Yes, i was thrilled and blessed to be with my family and also to welcome the newest editions to the family. But there was always something that was replaying in my mind.

I have been praying for something for past past couple of years and last year, I finally received it. It is something I LOVE doing and I know I am being a blessing to the people I am with on an everyday level. I got what I prayed for and I should be happy…right?

Well, the past month an uneasy feeling has been inside of me. A feeling that I am not at my final destination. The short version of this story is that I may have an opportunity to go somewhere else and EVERYTHING inside of me is telling me to take it.

It should be such an easy option. Option 2 is better than option 1 therefore take option 2. But my problem is that I prayed so much for option 1. I finally have it. I should be happy. Yet, for some reason I have it in my heart that i should be doing more somewhere else.

I prayed for some inspiration and came up with this.

I have been trying to put my earthly logic into the Lord’s plan. I assume that because this is what I prayed for, this is as far as i will go. I need to realize that i have a loving God that always looks out for me.

I love you and trust you lord!!!! I will not be placing any limits on what you can do! -PJSLB

I am sharing this because i know that a lot of you are going thru this as well. A lot of you are just as confused as I am about “What God wants me to do”. I read your comments and emails and all your questions. Its hard cause the questions you ask are questions i have myself.

My life has taken some turns and for the most part it has been exciting and fun. This part of my life isnt so much. I am scared and confused. How did i go from ‘what i prayed for’ to ‘an opportunity presents itself’ to ‘hey guess what something big could be on the way’. Its frustrating because i thought i was already at a place where God wants to use me. But now i can be pulled to two different place…Where do i go…What do I do? I am beginning to lose sleep over this.

After speaking with a childhood friend and my wife and asking for prayers, I am just as confused as ever. I then had a breakthrough! I GIVE UP!!!!! I GIVE UP TRYING TO FIGURE OUT WHAT God WANTS OUT OF ME! I give up trying to put the pieces together. I give up trying to “make moves” so that something will happen. I give up and will now let God completely take control.

Whether i stay where i am, go somewhere else, do what what i am doing now, create something new with a new opportunity, or even revert back to life before 2013 and the hectic schedule of a family business…i will just “fall” into place knowing that this is what God had planned all along. -PJSLB