I am sharing this because i know that a lot of you are going thru this as well.  A lot of you are just as confused as I am about “What God wants me to do”.  I read your comments and emails and all your questions.  Its hard cause the questions you ask are questions i have myself.

My life has taken some turns and for the most part it has been exciting and fun.  This part of my life isnt so much.  I am scared and confused.  How did i go from ‘what i prayed for’ to  ‘an opportunity presents itself’ to ‘hey guess what something big could be on the way’.  Its frustrating because i thought i was already at a place where God wants to use me.  But now i can be pulled to two different place…Where do i go…What do I do?  I am beginning to lose sleep over this.

After speaking with a childhood friend and my wife and asking for prayers, I am just as confused as ever.  I then had a breakthrough! I GIVE UP!!!!! I GIVE UP TRYING TO FIGURE OUT WHAT God WANTS OUT OF ME!  I give up trying to put the pieces together.  I give up trying to “make moves” so that something will happen.   I give up and will now let God completely take control.

Whether i stay where i am, go somewhere else, do what what i am doing now, create something new with a new opportunity, or even revert back to life before 2013 and the hectic schedule of a family business…i will just “fall” into place knowing that this is what God had planned all along. -PJSLB