No matter how you feel, if you have up right at this moment, you have been given a gift and the possibilities are endless. If you wake up in the morning, you have survived and what you just experienced has made you stronger.
God cannot and will not be in just half of your life. You cannot have God in your family life but when it comes to work/school, you live outside the boundaries. The contradiction in the worlds will just eat you alive.
This is a subject i have strgguled with and still continue to struggle in. Just because you are battling, that does not mean you are losing. You lose when you just give up. PJSLB