This evening, one of my dogs got out from a broken dense and has not returned. I am nervous and anxious. I feel so lost and not being in control is really getting to me. I have been praying and I give all to the lord. God will take care of it all. I leave it to you lord.
This morning, I received an email that disturbed my heart and soul:
Back in 2016 I considered dying but I didn’t make a plan because I thought their was hope(and because of extreme stubbornness) but then in 2018 I nearly died. Now I’m thinking maybe I should have. Should have ended things before then. I should of made a plan in 2016.. strange thing is I only really considered it once.. I remember thinking things were hopeless many many times but I didn’t consider dying very much..
First of all, I thank God that you are here still. 2016 is about 5 years ago. You are not the same person! You are stronger! The pandemic has affected everyone. It has affected me. I have had plenty of sleepless nights and to this day, I worry. I also miss days of the past and I wish things were better like they were back then. Unfortunately, we cant go back. We take things and events day by day, having one foot go in front of the other. If you walk this earth, you have a purpose! To the person who left this comment; As a Christian, you have forever! Please take time to talk to someone. Talk to a family member, a friend, a colleague, etc. You can also call the National Suicide Prevention Lifeline.
National Suicide Prevention Lifeline: Available 24 hours. Languages: English, Spanish. 800-273-8255
With the pandemic wrecking havoc in 2020, more and more people are suffering mental battles. Many of those are the same people or trying to help others get through it.