Too many times I try to help people. I give it my all and when the help is not accepted (worse failed), I take it personally. As A Christian I try my best to always be a server. The thing is as a server, I can only go so far…WE CAN ONLY DO SO MUCH. In the end it is the other party’s responsibility to what whatever they are looking for. I can help, but i cannot make you happy when you find what you are looking for.
Update 2 4:40 pm.
Weather is clearing up now as Guam is now in COR 4. We dodge a bullet here. Pray for Rota as they shouldered the brunt of the typhoon.
Update 1 8:20 am.
Just opened the front door. Still raining hard on the island. Still under flash flood warnings and COR 1.
The family has finally experienced our first typhoon on Guam. The eye of the typhoon arrived around 4:00 am. The pictures here are the view from the house. I pray the severity of the typhoon was off the shores of Guam. God bless and watch over the people of Guam and Rota (was much closer to the eye of the storm) with safety and security. Update coming…
As expected the day went better as the hours rolled by. Lot’s of honest conversations for Christ and got some things off my chest. Thats what i love about my relationship with Christ. ITS OPEN!!! Jesus doesn’t expect me to go thru life smiling. He understands that I will have good days and bad days. Jesus understands how i feel because he has walked on this earth!!! My savior is their for me to turn to when i am having a bad day. The main things i got from this day are:
Jesus walked on this earth and suffered more than i will ever suffer here. If my savior goes thru trials and tribulations, why should i be except from them?
As a Christian I am allowing Jesus to use me as a told to help others. Because of this by default i will ALWAYS be the giver. As far as being a a receiver; I have received everything I already needed when i accepted Jesus as my lord and savior. I don’t need anything more.
So use me lord to further your kingdom. In Good days and in bad, you are with me always.
It’s been a frustrating morning. It’s one of those mornings that feels like nothing is going right. Everything that I would normally brush off is irritating me today. Here is just a sample of what I’m taking about today.
It’s frustrating being the giver always. When can I be the receiver? When will someone help me?
It’s tiresome being good and trying to make a difference when you don’t see results.
I have been patient long enough. When will it be my turn for success and good fortune?
It’s great that everyone thinks my life is good but in reality in stuck in the mud just spinning my wheels.
I know these thoughts will go away as the day moves on. Today will be a lot of prayer, reflecting, and readings. Update as the days moves on…
Thoughts would be appreciated.