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When I am scared to stand up for myself

It has been a challenging holiday season.  Yes, i was thrilled and blessed to be with my family and also to welcome the newest editions to the family.  But there was always something that was replaying in my mind.

I have been praying for something for past past couple of years and last year, I finally received it.  It is something I LOVE doing and I know I am being a blessing to the people I am with on an everyday level.  I got what I prayed for and I should be happy…right?

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Well, the past month an uneasy feeling has been inside of me.  A feeling that I am not at my final destination.  The short version of this story is that I may have an opportunity to go somewhere else and EVERYTHING inside of me is telling me to take it.

It should be such an easy option.  Option 2 is better than option 1 therefore take option 2.  But my problem is that I prayed so much for option 1.  I finally have it.  I should be happy.  Yet, for some reason I have it in my heart that i should be doing more somewhere else.

I prayed for some inspiration and came up with this.


I have been trying to put my earthly logic into the Lord’s plan.  I assume that because this is what I prayed for, this is as far as i will go.  I need to realize that i have a loving God that always looks out for me.


I love you and trust you lord!!!!  I will not be placing any limits on what you can do! -PJSLB


I am done driving this bus

I am sharing this because i know that a lot of you are going thru this as well.  A lot of you are just as confused as I am about “What God wants me to do”.  I read your comments and emails and all your questions.  Its hard cause the questions you ask are questions i have myself.

My life has taken some turns and for the most part it has been exciting and fun.  This part of my life isnt so much.  I am scared and confused.  How did i go from ‘what i prayed for’ to  ‘an opportunity presents itself’ to ‘hey guess what something big could be on the way’.  Its frustrating because i thought i was already at a place where God wants to use me.  But now i can be pulled to two different place…Where do i go…What do I do?  I am beginning to lose sleep over this.

After speaking with a childhood friend and my wife and asking for prayers, I am just as confused as ever.  I then had a breakthrough! I GIVE UP!!!!! I GIVE UP TRYING TO FIGURE OUT WHAT God WANTS OUT OF ME!  I give up trying to put the pieces together.  I give up trying to “make moves” so that something will happen.   I give up and will now let God completely take control.

Whether i stay where i am, go somewhere else, do what what i am doing now, create something new with a new opportunity, or even revert back to life before 2013 and the hectic schedule of a family business…i will just “fall” into place knowing that this is what God had planned all along. -PJSLB

I love where I’m at Lord. Why should I move?

I am where I am and I am. It complaining. I feel like I am doing the Lords work and I love that. I always get nervous about the future and that’s a flaw I need to work on. 

My question is…what if opportunities come that will shake the “comfort” that I am in right now? How would I know which path to take. Talk to me lord. 


Notes on Armor Of God

Ephesians 6:10-18New International Version (NIV)

The Armor of God

10 Finally, be strong in the Lord and in his mighty power. 11 Put on the full armor of God, so that you can take your stand against the devil’s schemes. 12 For our struggle is not against flesh and blood, but against the rulers, against the authorities, against the powers of this dark world and against the spiritual forces of evil in the heavenly realms. 13 Therefore put on the full armor of God, so that when the day of evil comes, you may be able to stand your ground, and after you have done everything, to stand. 14 Stand firm then, with the belt of truth buckled around your waist, with the breastplate of righteousness in place, 15 and with your feet fitted with the readiness that comes from the gospel of peace. 16 In addition to all this, take up the shield of faith, with which you can extinguish all the flaming arrows of the evil one. 17 Take the helmet of salvation and the sword of the Spirit, which is the word of God.

18 And pray in the Spirit on all occasions with all kinds of prayers and requests. With this in mind, be alert and always keep on praying for all the Lord’s people.


My Notes:

Integrity. Integrity does not meaning perfection. Don’t appear different way to different people. You cannot have a business personality, a family personality, a friends personality, etc.  A Christian is the same regardless on who is is interacting with.  What you see is what you get.

Righteous. Purity of heart. Keeping my motive clear and clean. Even if you do the wrong thing, you wanna do the right thing. Have pure motives.

Peace. The gospel of peace. Peace with God, myself, and fellow people. Serenity is working and living peace.

Certainty. Certainty is faith. Trust God when all is going wrong in life. The more I love Gods word the less I worry about earthly problems. Gods truth is whether you believe it or not.

Integrity is attacked with lies. Righteousness and purity is attacked with lust. Peace and serenity will be attacked with worry.

Salvation. Protect your mind. Sanity. Protect your mind from evil thoughts.

Maturity is using the bible against the devil.

Spirit. The word of God is our weapon.

We are to live peace and speak it. We want to live peace but not speak it. share Jesus with others.

Fiery darts of the devil
Doubt. Did God really say that?

Prayer is how we fight the battle with the devil.